Certain moments in the lives of my children have turned me into a weepy mess. The last nursing session, the first haircut (he looks so grown up!), the last day of preschool, the first loose tooth (and the first GIGANTIC adult tooth).
These are the moments when Jeff and I look at each other, sigh, and say, “Our babies aren’t babies anymore.”
But if I’m being completely honest, after the gut-wrenching moments have passed, I find myself kind of loving being out of the baby stage. (Am I allowed to say that?)
Sure, those clean kissable baby feet have turned into stinky kid feet.
But those stinky kid feet can now march themselves into the shower all by themselves.
Those squishy baby cheeks aren’t so squishy any more.
But 99 nights out of 100 I’m sleeping through the night, so my cheeks are a little perkier.
I don’t get to use a stroller anymore to carry all my crap.
But now we can go on family bike rides and ride real roller coasters.
Yes, each stage brings new challenges (I can feel the “where do babies come from” question lurking around the corner). But every stage is better than the last. People tell you that all the time, and it turns out to be true.
To be able to have genuine conversations with my children is an incredible thing. At this point they are still mixed in with fart jokes and whining and such, but still…
I think part of the reason I love being out of the baby stage is that I wasn’t very good at the baby stage. I wasn’t that relaxed mom who could wear her baby around town and carry on with a normal life. I was the basket case who was afraid to leave the house, baggy-eyed and constantly twisted up in anxious knots (What if I’m doing this mothering thing wrong?).
And yes, I know, the teenage years will be challenging. People love to tell you all about that. But right now…I’m taking a deep breath and enjoying this moment of mothering two non-babies who can carry on a conversation, tell me what they need when they need it, and wash out their own armpits.
Right now. This. This is a good space to be in, and I’m making the most of it.